Archive - An Ordinary Disaster

Eighteen essays about addiction, masculinity, creativity, and intuition

As well as anxiety, fitness, sobriety, self-discipline, purpose, love, adventure, pain yoga, intuition, the collective unconscious, psychedelics…

Mar 25, 2023 •

How Well Is Your Wheel Rolling?

Using the Wheel of Life to identify the areas that need the most attention

Aug 30, 2023

Less Warrior, More Clown

Resistance, slaying dragons, eating shame, the false Grail, bus work, and Jackass S03E01

Aug 31, 2022 •

I'm here to be myself as much as possible—and the absolute truth can only be...nothing.

A conversation about meaning, identity, physicality, and purpose with Bowen Dwelle and Andy Johns

Jun 10, 2023 •

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"Writing yourself into existence" with Lyle McKeany

Writing yourself into existence, how writing is like music, whether men can say “sex”, writing memoir as a man, what we're afraid to write about…

May 20, 2023 •

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Let's open it up

Memoir only for the moment, done with previews, new interview format, and memoir on Substack

May 22, 2023

Doing my best to get my nose in it

Memoir and personal essay on identity, intuition, addiction and more.

Sep 18, 2022 •

Thinking of AI as an intuition machine

Why there's a "6" on my palm, the meaning of "Decide Nothing," cave art, AI-assisted inner work, DALL-E, Jaron Lanier's "data dignity," Captain Rob, and…

Oct 18, 2022 •

What I've Learned from Ten Brothers and Teachers

Adam Gayner, Roddy McDowell, Lucas Krump, T Callahan, Bob Conlin, Anthony David Adams, Robert Ellis, Kenyon Phillips, Noah Rainey, and James Brown on…

Nov 17, 2022 •

I'm Here To Tell The Truth

An Ordinary Disaster: My entire book-length memoir, serialized as a work in progress right here on Substack

Oct 11, 2023 •

That thing up there, on top of your body—it's is not for thinking.

Sep 27, 2023 •

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