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Eighteen essays about addiction, masculinity, creativity, and intuition
As well as anxiety, fitness, sobriety, self-discipline, purpose, love, adventure, pain yoga, intuition, the collective unconscious, psychedelics, masculine archetypes, and being a child-free man.
I recently divided my stack into sections—memoir, essays, mediations, and perhaps soon more—and in doing so I was reminded that I’ve put out no fewer than eighteen long form essays so far here, on topics ranging across anxiety, fitness, creativity, sobriety, self-discipline, purpose, love, adventure, sciatica, pain, AI, intuition, the collective unconscious, psychedelics, masculine archetypes, and being a child-free man, as well as how bringing certain chapters of life to an end consciously can bring about a unique form of pleasure.
If any of these topics sound interesting, I encourage you to dive in and enjoy some of the back catalog. Don’t forget to let me know if you enjoyed a piece by clicking the little heart 🤍 at the bottom of the essay—and, someone else comes to mind who would enjoy one of these—or all of them, please share!
Alcohol, addiction and sobriety
Change of Heart — A short version of how—and why—I changed my relationship with alcohol.
Why I Don't Use Psychedelics—I'm a supporter, and I've been there, but now I find drugs to be kindof boring.
A Five-Minute Love Affair With Natural Wine — I still love wine... I just don't drink it any longer.
Five Years Sober* — The reciprocal triangle of anger, addiction and depression—and anger as creative energy.
Sex is Better Sober ...and 23 other reasons why Alcohol is Obsolete — From depression and alcohol to spontaneous sobriety
The Man Pays — On not being a father, missing the boy who never was—and the bittersweet joy of being child-free.
The Truth About Love — What we know as love often leaves out the truth—and what men can bring to love.
Less Warrior, More Clown — Resistance, slaying dragons, eating shame, the false Grail, bus work, and Jackass S03E01.
Anxious Masculinity — Deconstructing the habit of anxiety—and "failing" as a man to make space for something new.
No, It Is Not a Struggle to Find Good Male Role Models — and, it’s time we got our heads screwed on straight about the so-called ”patriarchy.”
Purpose, Discipline and Creativity
The False Grail — The myth of purpose, Robert Johnson, John Paul Brammer, Toko-Pa Turner, John Daniel, Connor Beaton, and how we can move towards purpose with intuition, connection, and adventure.
Someone Else's Discipline is just... Bullshit — Redefining “discipline” as self-discipline.
Fitness and Creativity — How physical fitness at age 53 supports my creativity and my work as a writer—with pilates, body weight conditioning, calisthenics, trail running, and...paragliding.
Happy Music Makes Me Angry — …and angry music makes me happy
What is Intuition? A Whole and Open Mind — An inner voice, tutor, guardian within, embodied cognition, pattern recognition, knowing without knowing how, understanding through the experience of the senses, bone knowledge, wayfinding–and satori.
AI, Intuition and the Collective Unconscious — Why there's a "6" on my palm, the meaning of Decide Nothing, symbols, cave art, rescuing myself from having to decide, AI-assisted inner work, DALL-E, Captain Rob, and raypunk intuition machines.
What Keeps Me From Fucking Up My Life? — 21 ways to get better at intuitive decision making, and avoid unnecessary anxiety, painful decisions, and errors worth regretting.
The Last Time — Extreme sports, sailing, intuition, fear, closing chapters consciously, and creating a relationship with death
Screaming in Pain—and Laughing in Wonder — Sciatica, synthetic opioids, mind over matter, Maia Szalavitz, Holly Whitaker, Joan Didion, pain yoga, and Dakini Bliss.
Adventure Doesn't Happen by Accident — Don't leap—practice at the edges
Why I No Longer Cringe at Being Called a "Kitesurfer" — ...and how I've gotten to be OK with playing outdoors.
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