An Ordinary Disaster — chapter 29 — A Hard-Won Peace
Congrats on a finished manuscript! And this last entry is so interesting: full of the religious language of testimony, but without the Christian context.
Personally, I struggle with setting a before/after to my story, because I've already had so many. There's now a pretty clear before/after Christendom, but within that process were a dozen moments when I thought "oh Now I've arrived" and yet there was another after that.
And on the other side of faith I don't necessarily feel better. More myself? Certainly. Less depressed? Most of the time. But those years took a toll. And my body is saying very clearly that I still have a long way to go towards health and healing.
Most people will complete their transition, the re-evaluation of their belief systems, only after their death. How blessed to be able to transition while still living, and discover the true Essence of our existence.
Thanks for sharing your story. I can relate w a lot of your story. The lonely life of constant work travel (business systems & insurance auditor), alcohol, and adventure sports (kiter, surfer, xskier). While I'm no where near saying I'm free of my addictions, I am beginning to learn to value intuition. Thank you for so clearly presenting a way forward.
Congrats on finishing your memoir! That's a huge feat!