“I’ve known this for a long long time, but I was still trying to get away with it. The voice of “I don’t want to,” and “I can’t,” have been strong for me in certain realms of life for as long as I can remember.”

Man. You really have a way of connecting the human dots in a specific yet universal way. This one really felt like you were talking directly to me. Powerful stuff.

The Black Snake of Wounded Vanity


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Feb 14Liked by Bowen Dwelle

Woo, hope that motivation-push lasts!

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I really enjoyed and related to this piece Bowen. I’ve had issues with my back, bulging discs as well, and dealing with all the doctors and physio and exercises - alone was something I found particularly daunting. But I had never been able to articulate that so explicitly until I read this piece, so thank you.

P.S. I’m sure you already know but just incase you don’t - one of the many things that helped my back was getting a chin up bar to hang on as it helps decompress the spine.

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Well this just slammed into my life as a wake-up call. I just blazed through a few of your posts, particularly the sciatica one and this one (as well as the interview with Kim Stanley Robinson, one of my favorite authors!) and I am once again motivated to care for my body and strive for fitness; now not just to escape chronic pain, but also for the sake of my writing. You’ve got yourself another subscriber!

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