I like the idea. Interesting combination of forces to unpack. Personally I’ve always had a strong sense of intuition and have relied on it quite often—even in the dark days of my worst addictive behaviors. I always “knew” what I was doing went against that intuition—and yet I would often continue with the behavior nonetheless. All the while “knowing.” I’ll be curious to read and examine your thoughts.
Thanks Dee, appreciate your comment here. I will be doing some unpacking for sure! My experience was different in that I did not have a strong sense of intuition & so I although now and then I had a hint, that was fairly easily ignored. Can you say more about how it felt to act against such strong intuitive knowing?
How it felt was disconnected and mindless. The autonomic system was in control most of the time—responding to cravings or stresses. Now in my recovery as I’ve put more tools into practice—I’ve learned betters ways to respond when those triggers or moments of discomfort arise.
The feeling of saying “I knew better” has been largely replaced by “I know better.”
I’m more in my body and am more aware of those moments and can let them pass.
Hi Bowen. I intuit many addictions are often just substitutes. A rat in a cage will tap the cocaine lever incessantly. Given a more natural environment it has no interest. I've been reading a lot about the gut brain connection. Unless an imminent decision is crucial, I convince myself I've made a decision and do nothing. I have patterns that I don't necessarily need to change, rather patterns that I would like to emulate. My sixty-seventh birthday is happening March 11th. I'm going to keep rollin' with what I got. There are numerous variables in your questions relative to time, time left, experience, culture and perhaps geographical location. Ergo no simple answers.
I like the idea. Interesting combination of forces to unpack. Personally I’ve always had a strong sense of intuition and have relied on it quite often—even in the dark days of my worst addictive behaviors. I always “knew” what I was doing went against that intuition—and yet I would often continue with the behavior nonetheless. All the while “knowing.” I’ll be curious to read and examine your thoughts.
Thanks Dee, appreciate your comment here. I will be doing some unpacking for sure! My experience was different in that I did not have a strong sense of intuition & so I although now and then I had a hint, that was fairly easily ignored. Can you say more about how it felt to act against such strong intuitive knowing?
How it felt was disconnected and mindless. The autonomic system was in control most of the time—responding to cravings or stresses. Now in my recovery as I’ve put more tools into practice—I’ve learned betters ways to respond when those triggers or moments of discomfort arise.
The feeling of saying “I knew better” has been largely replaced by “I know better.”
I’m more in my body and am more aware of those moments and can let them pass.
Hi Bowen. I intuit many addictions are often just substitutes. A rat in a cage will tap the cocaine lever incessantly. Given a more natural environment it has no interest. I've been reading a lot about the gut brain connection. Unless an imminent decision is crucial, I convince myself I've made a decision and do nothing. I have patterns that I don't necessarily need to change, rather patterns that I would like to emulate. My sixty-seventh birthday is happening March 11th. I'm going to keep rollin' with what I got. There are numerous variables in your questions relative to time, time left, experience, culture and perhaps geographical location. Ergo no simple answers.